a work out journal {week 2}

January 21, 2013

It was a holiday today, but I had every intention of working out. I did learn one thing, if I don't work out in the morning...I always will find something else to do and never work out. Lesson learned. I was grumpy some of the day, mostly because I am so afraid of missing a day of working out. I don't want to fall out of this pattern, because I have already done that so many times.

I keep reminding myself that I am making small changes, because I don't want to overwhelm myself. I still eat pretty much exactly what I want, but instead of going days with no water...I added a few glasses a day. This may be small progress for some, but it is huge for me.

January 22, 2013

I was excited to get to work out this morning. {I know, where did that come from!?} Three days off was too much time, and my body was craving some butt kickin'.

Paul watched the kids {thank you!} so that I had a full hour of uninterrupted working out. It was hard, but I can already feel my body becoming stronger. This week is a lot less emotional.

I am strangely looking forward to Spring, because I know that I will be strong enough to start running again outside...

January 23, 2013

This week is feeling like a flop. The church was closed for cleaning, the Geek Squad didn't come on time, and now I have already showered for the day.

January 24th, 2013

The kids didn't sleep a wink last night. I drank my weight in Coke. I am grumpy. I just want to sit on the couch, and veg...working out is definitely not in my cards today.

January 25th, 2013

I woke up feeling emotional. Probably because I have only worked out once this entire week. I am discouraged, but am reminded that sometimes things aren't going to go exactly as planned.

I left for my workout late, and missed half of the instruction. Luckily this group of ladies I work out with is beyond supportive and awesome!! I found a girl to help me the entire time, and she pushed me to really get a good workout in. I am going to be sore, but she kept reminding me that I had the weekend to recover.

I came home happy, and loving that my body is telling me to exercise.

Two weeks down folks! I can do this.

Shutterfly Valentine Giveaway

I already have talked about Savannah's school not participating in holiday class parties. She isn't disappointed, because she doesn't know any different. It does leave me wanting to do more celebrating at home, because I have so many fun memories of class parties. Who didn't just love making the Valentine box to take to school?

Last year we decided to do Valentine cards, and we tied it in with our Operation Snail Mail goal. This year will be similar, but Savannah has made a lot of friends that we will be able to deliver Valentine love to as well.

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I have become slightly addicted to personalized cards. I love being able to add pictures, names, and little love notes on cards. We definitely don't buy the grocery store cards anymore.

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This year we are loving the new Valentine styles that Shutterfly is offering, and if you aren't familiar with all their card options...they have a Classroom collection that are the cute little cards for your kids.

What do you do for Valentine's Day? Do you plan on buying a personalized Valentine gift? My favorite is definitely the Desktop Plaque {I ordered one a few months ago with a picture of Paul and I printed on it!}. I feel like Valentine's day is not just for love birds anymore, it is for everyone to celebrate how much we love each other.

So here is the giveaway friends.

Shutterfly is going to give one lucky reader, 50 – 4x5 Stationery Cards {these are small classroom cards} and  1 - 5.5x5.5 Desktop Plaque {which trust me you will LOVE THIS!}.

  a Rafflecopter giveaway Disclosure: I was given cards and a plaque for writing this post, but all opinions are my own. We really can't wait to send out Valentine cards again this year, and hope it will be a tradition that will stick around for a long time.

working on a goal.

In December while I was thinking about goals I was going to set for the new year, I had this desire to start having more pictures taken with me in them...with my kids, of course! I even had my friend Kim come over, and take some of Sabrina and I together.

I actually have never had a problem with getting my picture taken, but after a couple of babies in 2 years...it has left me feeling a little more camera shy. I wrote about my simple goals for 2013, and then a few days later a blog I read had the perfect post to sum up why I wanted to set this goal. 

Last week I got the pictures that Kim took in December, and every. single. image. gave me the warm fuzzies. Kim has a way of making you look and feel beautiful, and somehow manages to get all the emotions in a every image.

Kim already knows that I feel like I will forever be indebted to her for the beautiful pictures she has taken of my family. These pictures of Sabrina and I, just sealed the deal.

I am so excited to keep this goal going, I just wish that Kim could follow me around and take all of the pictures.

I hope that my children will look at the pictures of me lovin' on them, and know how much I truly adore each of them. I love that they are all so different, and bring something completely different to our family.

aaaand just because I can't resist sharing, here is a couple of the pictures Kim took of just Sabrina after she woke up from her peaceful slumber...

a work out journal. {week one}

January 14th, 2013

Gosh, it is sad that playing Just Dance makes me sore, and tired. These kids can run circles around me. At least I didn't just sit and watch like I usually do, I got up and played with them. I am making small changes, and that feels good.

January 15th, 2013

I had plans to attend a workout at a church nearby for the first time. I woke up, and saw on Facebook they were struggling to find someone to teach. I was kind of excited, because that could totally be my excuse to miss out. Of course, they found someone.

I quickly got ready, and realized I didn't have anything that could contain my chest for working out {I'm still nursing.}. That is a good enough excuse to miss.

I finally got the kids dressed, myself dressed, snacks, and I was out the door. Devin didn't want to get in his car seat, it was a struggle...and I kept telling myself what a bad idea this all was. I got half way to the church, and realized I didn't bring water...maybe this would be my way out.

I pull in, make my way to the gym, and don't see the person who was suppose to meet me {Brandie, I still love you for skipping out on me!}. This is so hard for me. I sit at the back, almost in tears, wishing I could just disappear.

I wish I didn't have to try to be skinny. I wish that I liked working out and eating healthy. I wish that this was easier for me.

A nice lady named Tammy comes to welcome me, I feel a tiny bit better...until we start working out. I feel pathetic, I feel old, I feel like I want to quit.

After an hour of working out, I load the kids back in the car...and want to cry all the way home. I know I am going to be sore, I know this is going to be a long journey, and I know I have to keep doing this.

January 16th, 2013

I was better prepared this morning, and had everything in the car so I wouldn't forget things like my water...again. Mat and a new sports bra were purchased last night to help me. I did feel better about my appearance, amazing what a good sports bra will do. I was still grumpy about working out, but I tried to have fun while putting myself through hell. Squats, push-ups, pull-ups, running, jump roping, and the list goes on. My legs were jelly when I tried to walk to the car.

Working out with the kids comes with a set of complications. I had to break to change a diaper, I had to yell at Devin to stop rolling the yoga balls into people, and then Sabrina wanted to be held. I had to remind myself to just keep moving, even if that meant holding Sabrina while I did laps around the church.

As I was working out, and watching Devin be active, my grumpiness washed away a little. I know I need to do this for me, but my kids need to see me do this too. I was never a skinny child, and have struggled with my body image. It is only fair that at age 31, I start changing that. I want to teach my kids I can do hard things, and that it is fun to be active.

January 17th, 2013

I can't move. Exercise makes me cranky, and diet is a swear word to me. I want quick results, I think I may need to eat my feelings today. Paul is rewarding me with a date to the movies, and I love that he is so supportive.

January 18th, 2013

I completed a week of exercise. I DID IT! I feel accomplished. Sore...yes, but I did it. I am ready for next week. My legs are incredibly sore, and I was scared to work out today. As soon as I got going, the pain went away. This will get easier, I just need to be patient.

I am thankful for this group of women that welcomed me in, and have taught me how to lift weights, do a burpee {ouch!}, and lots of other things. I am ready for this new beginning.

 

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Hoping next week is slightly easier, and less emotional for me. I will be writing my thoughts down daily and sharing on Fridays. Oh, and a weekly picture of me...you're welcome. :)

lessons learned about being a SAHM

I have spent the past 7 or so months having a love/hate relationship with being a stay at home Mom...most of the hating has to do with me being hormonal. I have learned a thing or two about myself, and what works for us. I specifically remember one day telling Paul that I should have never quit working, I was going nuts. Good thing Paul talked me out of going and begging for my job back. What I thought would be an easy transition for me, wasn't...and I had to learn to love staying home.

I am learning to not be so hard on myself.

I have learned that just because I stay home, doesn't mean my house is going to be spotless. Some days all I can do is keep the kids fed, clean, and happy.

I am learning that I have to stay at home most days, because my babies thrive on nap schedules. This means that my standing lunch date with Paul has been scratched. I make Devin and I a simple lunch at home instead, and then we take good long naps.

{she makes laundry look good.}

I have learned that I really like Monday's for structure, and I still look forward to a Friday. I don't love getting Savannah to school early in the mornings during the week.

I am learning it is okay to ask Paul for help. At first I had this idea that because I stay home, I had to do everything. Paul is awesome to see when I am struggling, and most times I don't have to ask. It is hard for me to admit I can't do it all.

{making a mess trying to find gems. this was a fun kit, and grandma sell totally gets brownie points.}

I have learned that I am lucky to stay home with these kids of ours. As I rocked Sabrina to sleep for her afternoon nap, I realized I couldn't ever remember doing this with Savannah. I love having no where to go, and everything that I could be doing doesn't feel as important as this moment.

I am learning that I need a bedtime, I also need to make time for me...which includes blogging, running to the gas station, or a late movie with my lady friends.

{if van only knew what he did while she was at school.}

I have learned that it is always easier to wake up after a long night knowing you don't actually have to get ready for work...pajama days are awesome.

I know that I will constantly be learning, growing, and getting better at this new gig. I will always be grateful for this opportunity, because I know what it feels like to be a working Mom.

{Devi is totally anti-camera right now,

but the girls are always happy to pose for me.}

7 + 2 + newborn = crazy town.

I found this post in my drafts, and I wondered why I never published it. Maybe I didn't want to come across ungrateful, or that I didn't have it all together. I look back on those first few months of having 3 children, and can't believe we made it. It was hard, like really hard for me. It makes me smile to see how far we have come in such a short time. I can go in public with all my kids, and not feel the anxiety come on.

When the kids are all in bed, Paul and I talk about how Sabrina can't be our last when we can make such cute babies. I was the girl that thought I might not get to have one baby of my own. Paul was the boy that didn't want any kids. :)

Even if it is crazy town over here, I love having a car full of kids {and secretly would love a mini van}.

 

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July 2012

Even though I feel like we weren't cut out for having kids 2 years apart, here we are. Sometimes we find ourselves laughing, because it is just that entertaining.

In the middle of the night I was sitting in the rocking chair with Devin in my right arm, Sabrina in my left, and I cried. Mostly because I am so tired, but a small part of me is feeling like I am failing. It is so early in the game to think that, but it is the truth. How am I ever going to give these two babies of mine the attention they both deserve?

I don't complain about the cost of having two in diapers, but I do feel like I am always changing one. Paul even decided he would be in charge of all of Devin's poop-e diapers, if I would take care of Sabrina's. We easily change 20+ diapers a day, oh yes...super fun stuff. 

I feel like the only conversations I have consist of how well kids slept, how many times babies have pooped, and when the last time little people were fed. Absolutely thrilling, right? Don't bother trying to have a deep conversation with me, I am too tired...and most likely won't be able to follow along.

Going out alone with all 3 kids is scary for me. The getting in and out of the car safely is a joke. Devin hasn't figured out that cars are dangerous, and has decided he doesn't like the help of his older sister. I am sure I will figure this out sooner or later, but taking 2 kids in public is like a cake walk now. Funny how that happens.

I am sure that it will all get easier, actually I know it will. I try to tell myself that I can do hard things, and that I need to live in the moment. One thing I know for sure is, I am glad that I am not doing this alone, Paul always comes to the rescue when I need it.

girl scout cookies.

The time has finally come folks!!

 

This girl is selling Girl Scout Cookies.

In the weeks leading up to the cookie kick off, I think I have been just as excited about this as she is. It is fun to watch her be apart of something that she loves, and is really excited to be doing.

She set a goal to sell 100 boxes of cookies. We went to the meeting, and the troop goals were waaaay more than our little 100 boxes. Sooo, if you want to buy cookies, Savannah is your gal.

Details...

$3.50 a box

The 8 flavors are...

Savannah Smiles
Trefoils
Do-Si-Dos
Samoas
Dulce De Leche
Thank u Berry Munch
Tagalongs
Thin Mints

Pay when they come in at the end of February, and Savannah will deliver them to you. :)

I plan on splitting up the delivery days according to where you live {Utah County, SL County, etc.}. If you don't want to wait for the day I will be in your area, then you can always come pick them up at our house.

Orders need to be emailed to sellpartyof {at} gmail by January 26th.

Our troop is also doing a few cookie booths, if you want to come and support the girls that way instead. I will post that information when it is closer to the days.

Thank you for your support. I have already had people email me wanting to help Savannah reach her goal, and you will never know how happy you made our daughter.