The songs that my friends chose to put on the mixed tape were perfect. I have literally been listening to my mixed tape since the shower ended. Van has her favorites, and those have been played more times than I can count. Paul and I love rap...gasp...yep, I just admitted to it. When Sam Jo's pick came on, I instantly thought of the day Paul and I made it one of our songs. I couldn't believe that Sam would remember me telling her about how important this song is to us.
This pregnancy (along with the previous year, before Vin was safely in my belly) reminds me a lot of this song as well. I have always made a lot of choices because it would make someone else happy. In the past 18 or so months I have made a lot of choices because it is exactly what will make me happy...and, as selfish as that makes me, I'm okay with it. I have lived a life of making everyone else happy, and at 28...I have chosen to make me a top priority. I'm just as important as the rest.
I asked Paul just today if I should feel bad, because there is something that I didn't do. I can't tell you his exact response but it was something along these lines... "No you should not, it was your thing, and about you!" Yet another reason why I adore that man!
I have learned that when you put yourself and your family first, you sometimes hurt the feelings of others. This is never my intention. I don't know if its intentional or not (I hope not) but sometimes people hurt my feelings too...I think this is one of those crazy dilemma's in life. My decisions will not please everyone and I will not always be happy with the decisions of others...its unavoidable. I can only chalk it up to "that's the way life is" and do what I think is best for me and my family.
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Of course you do. It's clear how much you love your family.
Your last paragraph summed it up very well. As long as people don't intentionally hurt others, taking care of yourself and your family is never a bad thing. You go girl!
Amen, sister!
I need to take a page from your book!
I will have to admit that I really like that song. I have never heard it before. I am so glad you are making decsions for YOU and YOUR family. :)
I learned that (finally!) last year. My family is first, everything else is second and down the line.
I thought that was a great idea with the mixed tape. Totally bummed I didn't make it.
I am glad you are putting you and your family first. You and your family deserve the best.
You are a-ma-zing and I love your guts! (and your face too).
I remembered because I ♥ u! I agree its hard to make everyone happy at the same time and you have to do what makes your family happy first!
Heck yeah! Sometimes you have to think about yourself. Its really selfish to not. THink about it, if you're not happy and you're miserable that affects everyone around you! Its true. THats how I think of it.
And I love songs that empower you, and rap seems to have a lot of those. During a rough breakup I loved listening to "survivor" I think its by destiny's child. Not rap but still really good and so empowering.
You'll have to ask Nate about what we like to do with notrious BIG music. Its wild!
yup, I totally agree. That's the great thing about growing up, isn't it. When we finally figure out what makes us happy :)
I'm am so happy for you - you have such a cute family and Vin will just add that much more. Van is going to be a great big sister aka 2nd mommy. I can't wait to see pics of cute little Vin, but I'm sure you can't wait to see him either.
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