Some days I don't think about it.
Some days it is overwhelming the emptiness I feel.
Today is one of those days.
I am missing those people that once were my friends, my entertainment, the people I could count on, my family...now they are no more than acquaintances.
As I watch our daughter become less and less like a little girl, I think of all that is being missed. We have entered a world of high heel shoes and press on nails. How much she has changed. She is confused, and wonders why people aren't her friends anymore. It is sad really, I can't explain to her why...because I don't know either.
It breaks my heart that some people have never even been able to meet our baby, who is not a baby anymore...more like a toddler. He won't have the same memories Van did. I guess it is good thing, he won't ever know what he is missing.
I always say tomorrow will be better.
The emptiness will not stay forever, because my life has been filled with amazing people. I know they don't replace the people that are gone...but they do a great job at filling in the gaps.
10 comments:
i'm sorry your heart is hurting right now.
while i can't mend it, i can offer some type of healing balm...like a coke...
:)
Wow - I almost wrote a post exactly like this today! I've been feeling the same lately. I'm sorry! It hurts and it sucks and most people don't understand. But, tomorrow will be better.
I'll leave you with my favorite quote ever from a rap song - May the best of your todays be the worst of your tomorrows. (10 bonus points if you can name the song :)
If I were at your house right now, we'd most-def be walking to the gas station for a drink fix.
I'm sorry you're hurting. I'm sorry that you have to wonder why they're missing your kid's lives (I couldn't do without watching a kid grow - it's like reliving the magic all over again). The good thing is you are a wonderful momma and you'll be there for them no matter what. And I'm here for you no matter what. Hoping the rest of the day and the next day and every day after that get a little easier for you.
So sorry, my friend.
I'm so sorry your heart hurts, and Van's. I think you're FAB and you're absolutely right, tomorrow will be better!!
((hugs)) sorr you are having one of those days!!
this just made me want to cry- been having similar feelings/issues lately. hugs to you!
Sorry you're having such a sad day! Hope you're back to feeling better soon!
Tomorrow *will* be better.
Loves you!
I'm sorry. Loss is so very hard.
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