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Paul was the first person to really get my sensitivity...probably because he is sensitive too. Paul has spent the last 13 or so years standing up for me, and trying to help people understand it too. In the process Paul has taught me I can stand up for myself. Sometimes I think he regrets teaching me to voice my opinion, because I have gotten too good at trash talkin'. :)
So you know what happens when two really sensitive people have a daughter? You get our sensitive Savannah.
Every day I realize that the reason why I am her Mom is because I do understand her. I will protect her furiously just like Paul did and still does for me when I can't do it for myself. I will be here for Savannah when she doesn't get that phone call that she was hoping for, or when someone at school makes fun of her for not being able to do the monkey bars.
AND I am hoping more than anything Paul and I can teach Savannah that it is okay to stand up for yourself...and protect those little sensitive feelings.
Savannah has definitely taken the miscarriage the hardest. The night I told Savannah about the baby being gone was one of the toughest things I have had to do. Her little heart broke. If I could have a redo, it would definitely be that night...I would have worded things much different. I spent most of that night in her bed wiping her tears, and she wiped mine. So darn lucky that she is our little girl.
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Today: December 11, 2011Savannah has definitely taken the miscarriage the hardest. The night I told Savannah about the baby being gone was one of the toughest things I have had to do. Her little heart broke. If I could have a redo, it would definitely be that night...I would have worded things much different. I spent most of that night in her bed wiping her tears, and she wiped mine. So darn lucky that she is our little girl.
8 comments:
What sweet girls you both are.
Love you both! a lot.
I too am a very sensitive soul. I may tell you that I am over it, but even the stupid caddy remarks that someone says that should not matter, matter to me. I am kind, and the fact that many are not, hurts my feelings. I am so sorry about your miscarriage. Losing babies just simply sucks. You are strong even when you do not think you are, and I think you are fantastico!
I'm so sorry for both of your pain.
((((HUGS))))
Very sweet
This made me get all teary. You are such a wonderful mom.
My kids were at their dads when I had my miscarriage in a way I was thankful for that one day to ponder and pray for the right words to help them understand. I was so thankful for the gospel and for primary that they can learn families can be together forever again someday. I honestly don't remember exactly how it all came out but it made sense and they understood and we all cried together the next few hours and days but they knew in their hearts we would see our baby again. They often ask heavenly father to take care of our angel baby and give em a hug or tell them something in their prayers and its helped them fill the void thats there. There are still days my kids will break down and cry when thinking about it but then smile they are with both my grandpas and being taken care of. Hugs to you and Van..its so hard :(
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